have i changed?!!!

that statement stay in my mind for some times ago,,

‘Have i changed?’, ‘Have i changed?’, ‘Have i changed?’, ‘Have i changed?’, ‘Have i changed?’….

my mom said ‘what’s the matter? what’s wrong? what’s make u change?’,, my sister said that too,, my best said that too,, even my friends said like that..

hey,, intan?! why do u can’t be your self,, just be who you are, intan!

where’s intan that i ever known?!

where’s intan who an easy going girl?!

where’s intan whose had a lot of friends?

where’s intan with all of her laugh?

where’s intan???? where’s intan???

Hufh!!! i feel tired

i realize, i’ve changed since i was in 3rd grade of college,,

since i changed not to chat anymore, since i got that problem,, since i choosed that track,,  i let my friends go.. i was changed since that time!!! now,, i’m not intan that u’d ever known. i’m not intan with my crazy thing,, my friendliness,,

i don’t know why? i’ve tried to go back to the real of me!!! intan before get college,, i often wanna go to my ordinary.. my habit! although in that time,, i still chat, i still waste time,, and another bad habit,, but i was happy to be the real of me!!! u know, i can’t,, i can’t go back!

now,, i prefer to stay alone in my room with all of activities in it!! i prefer to speak with my self. And of course,, Allah the only God!!! i can’t belive anyone anymore!!! cause when i’ve trust in them,, they hurt me… very hurt!!!

But it’s okay,, i’m fine! now,, i’ve the best in my life,, my parents,, my families,, and agam. Agam’s the best teacher for me. He always teach me about everything! not to mad, be patient,, and many more..

i realize that many people love me,, i know and thanks for your love for me ^_^ but sorry,, i’ve not could trust in u all.. sorry! now,, i just wanna way my life.. continue this life ’til Allah calls me to go back to Allah. I just intan, human who always try to be better… no matter you say! yes, i’m intan!!! ^_^